I was not aware you thought so lowly of your patron, seeing as your post is smattered with childish attempts at trying to get him to punish pahn.
Fact is this Arturo
You are a joke, you hide, and whine, and cry to your god. You will never be anything more than a mediocre cavalier. You just don't have the talent or the iron will that it takes to actually make it.
You are in essence, useless.
Written by my hand on the 20th of Springflower, in the year 1139.