It might as well be for the better that I'm not allowed to post on the Public Board.

I did loose my temper and even if I had had the chance I wouldn't have been able to react differently given some time to think it over.

This is not a post where I seek to give excuses to anyone, as I partly think I'm not all wrong about stuff like posting tales of visits to clap clinincs etc. - that that is out of place.

His lordship Mephisto once told me that if I ever posted anything with that for me typical drivel on it, he would gut me like a fish and shove them down my throat. I don't remember the exact word, and it really doesn't matter if I did, the thing is th

at I here write on the pacifists' board, and I hope this is where I will be allowed to post.

What's this post all about?

First let's remember the fact that we only have 241 posts in the pacifists section so far. This means that probably a very limited number of people ever read this section.

It also means that it has very little relevance what's on this board, to the broad majority of the people in Avalon. I do hope that someone will take the time to read this.

I guess most people consider me to be a coward (those that know who I am which is probably a very small amount indeed).

Good then, I will explain why I am a pacifist and what it means to me to be one. First of all, when it comes to fighting. it's all about information. I feel it's difficult to start fighting (and over what) when one doesn't have the necessary knowledge

to do so.

This knowledge you will ofcourse tell me can be gained though combat experience. I guess my problem is that I'm to proud to be killed by anyone knowing that I tried my best to defeat the other. That is my problem not yours. Don't make it yours.

This is enough for now. I can't possibly reduce all I have to say into one post.

Let me finish off by saying that I don't fear combat, but I do fear the boredom of combat.

YoursTavor

Written by my hand on the 4th of Eleuthral, in the year 1083.