I did not at any point say you were a coward, nor did I attempt to imply it.
Perhaps your paranoia in this area speaks volumes about your inner thoughts.
I would however suggest that you watch who's rituals you stand amongst, a peace ritual which once you
are summoned within prevents your leaving sounds like it is dubious to the Herbiest standards.
Written by my hand on the 5th of Agamnion, in the year 1104.